朋友,各有各的活動~
找不到人陪~
最近
少了一個可以愛的人,也少了一個可以陪你的擊友...
薩比西
死神 去死吧
有時候真的會想,當初不叫 死神跟 XY 他們來 就好了..
也許我現在就不會那麼寂寞
有朋友好似沒朋友似的
15年的朋友,每天跟女朋友膩在一起
陪我一個晚上會死喔?
XY跟死神從XY家 帶了4個的燈籠給我.
說等下一起放~ (但是我看到他叫 死神 帶書去他房間看...)
嘛~算了
我就知道 會這樣~又是空頭支票
我學會了不期待就不會失望
這...啟示 是 珉珠 妳給我的
我的 珉珠 ..已經不是我的了(
等下我要去放火!
今天放工,她 跟ZHEN,SHIH Er大聲BYE
看到我在後面馬上閉嘴看電腦.....
證明妳還在意某些..對我的傷害吧
我也...不看著妳,也不BYE了..
我們的BYE,最後一個BYE...
一直都是8月8日妳回來公司的第一天
沒說出口的那個嘴型BYE...
雖然最後一次說話,跟最後一次你叫我,是在之後...
但是那個BYE,怎樣都比之後的有誠意
今天綁我喜歡看的馬尾啊..
我,從沒跟馬尾的她說過話呢...
眼睛看到妳的時候,已經自動打 馬賽克了...
不知道是不是好事還是壞事?
淡淡的憂傷...
不只是事業上?
感情上也要天降大任於斯?
那麼到最後,我一定會變成 麻木,鐵石心腸 ,沒有人情味的人吧?
分手后，我还认识你，不过不想再见你，你过的好，我不会祝福你，你过的不好，我不会嘲笑你。因为我们从此陌生。你的世界不再有我，我的世界不再有你。我不能再珍惜你，抱歉，我失去的，也是你失去的。。
2011年9月11日 星期日
Sky-Clad observer
The past retreats, but does the future come any closer?
The observer will one day wake to the paradox
The world God created is complete and in perfect equilibrium
Brought about by coincidence folded unto coincidence, a miracle the scale of the universe
“Limits” on the gate protected up until now, are ended
Open The Eyes -
“Zero” is the past, “One” is the future, “the present” is nowhere to be found
In logic you cannot defy
Open The Eyes -
Amidst countless tracks all aligned, selection is profane
Doubting even our “existence” in your eyes this time-scape
“Converges”
Even the concept of time told by two hands of a clock
Distorts depending on the observer
Our intelligence granted by God, surely has an end and absolute domain
Out of coincidence brought on by stupidity, an unwelcome miracle
“Limits” on the gate locked up until now, are ended
Open the Eyes -
Reaching out to the speed of light, the pulse of memories
Soars into an unfathomable logic
Open the Eyes -
A theory without rhyme or reason still kept secret by the universe
Each point and point we call infinity, utilizes impossible power and
“Replays”
“Zero” is the past, “One” is the future, “the present” is nowhere to be found
In logic you cannot defy
Open The Eyes -
Amidst countless tracks all aligned, selection is profane
Doubting even our “existence” in your eyes this time-scape
“Converges”
2011年9月9日 星期五
Ash Like Snow
The sky
Is dyed with crimson red
That comes out of the darkness
Of what needs to be said
The stars we used to know
No longer glow
Obscured by all the ash that falls like snow
I watched it all
Through the window of my grief
I never dreamed
That I would feel so cold
There...I come for you
All of my hopes are in a shroud of desolation
Dreams I that once had have all been crushed
Now that everything's changed, I have been holding on so desperately
To the precious things
That I cannot protect
'Cause I always break them...
My heart
Is played just like harp
By sinful hands of darkness
With nails oh so sharp
Your voice is like a drug
That makes me numb
It leaves me with no senses,
Deaf and dumb
No matter how we try to win this war
It never ends!
And why must it be me
Who does the fighting?
Even if all the light around us is extinguished
Even if the Earth is turned to dust
I won't ever forget
That tiny wish that burns eternally
It will guide us to a better world, somewhere
there I come for you yeah
Ash Like Snow
is falling down from your sky
Ash Like Snow
Ash like Snow
Ash like snow
Let me hear...
why I have to fight?
And now all of my hopes are in a shroud of desolation
Dreams I that once had have all been crushed
In exchange for the glory that can overcome the choking dark
I have given up the strength I used to protect what I love
(It's falling from your sky)
I don't know what to do...
(Baby I come for you)
Every time that I'm cut by broken shards of what was once a dream
I will reach into the darkness of my heart,
and I will try to find the strength to carry on!
'Cause I've made it this far...
Is dyed with crimson red
That comes out of the darkness
Of what needs to be said
The stars we used to know
No longer glow
Obscured by all the ash that falls like snow
I watched it all
Through the window of my grief
I never dreamed
That I would feel so cold
There...I come for you
All of my hopes are in a shroud of desolation
Dreams I that once had have all been crushed
Now that everything's changed, I have been holding on so desperately
To the precious things
That I cannot protect
'Cause I always break them...
My heart
Is played just like harp
By sinful hands of darkness
With nails oh so sharp
Your voice is like a drug
That makes me numb
It leaves me with no senses,
Deaf and dumb
No matter how we try to win this war
It never ends!
And why must it be me
Who does the fighting?
Even if all the light around us is extinguished
Even if the Earth is turned to dust
I won't ever forget
That tiny wish that burns eternally
It will guide us to a better world, somewhere
there I come for you yeah
Ash Like Snow
is falling down from your sky
Ash Like Snow
Ash like Snow
Ash like snow
Let me hear...
why I have to fight?
And now all of my hopes are in a shroud of desolation
Dreams I that once had have all been crushed
In exchange for the glory that can overcome the choking dark
I have given up the strength I used to protect what I love
(It's falling from your sky)
I don't know what to do...
(Baby I come for you)
Every time that I'm cut by broken shards of what was once a dream
I will reach into the darkness of my heart,
and I will try to find the strength to carry on!
'Cause I've made it this far...
2011年9月4日 星期日
初嘗戀愛滋味,竟然只是個沒有結果的曖昧..心碎
曖昧是...
你們認識很久
他天天朝九晚五噓寒問暖的
電話比你的鐘錶還要準時
你滿心歡喜你開始心懷期待
就連做夢都會笑出來
可是他就是什麼也不說
你對自己說等等再等等
直到有一天
你看到他身邊有了另一個身影
你震驚：「不是...這是....我是.....？」
在朋友眼裏你們很登對
每次聚會他做你的護花使者責無旁貸
你也發現自己對他有了些些的依賴
他總是不經意的拍拍你的肩
很寵愛的揉揉你的髮
朋友關於你們之間無傷大雅的玩笑讓你覺得很甜蜜
你說你感覺幸福就在不遠的地方
就在你以為一切都將水到渠成的時候
睛天霹靂,他說他從沒對你有過這種想法
他說這是你的誤會
你呆住了：「誤會？那麼多人前的親暱......竟...竟然是...誤會...？」
傷心嗎?
難過嗎?
痛苦嗎?
只是....只是
誰讓你把曖昧當愛情呢？………
這是個曖昧橫行的年代
感情出現的第三個種類
比友情深比愛情淺
游走於二者的邊緣
這就是曖昧
是什麼時候開始本應是明明朗朗的愛情成了一場麓戰
誰先動心誰就滿盤皆輸萬劫不復
是誰把簡單複雜化
其實說穿了
曖昧
是可以推脫責任的遊戲
沒有承諾就無需負責
曖昧
是勇敢者的遊戲,無畏的人
才能在角逐中進退自如
如果你沒有鐵石鑄就的心腸做軟胃甲
那麼你就別拿曖昧當愛情...
曖昧是
比好朋友再親一點
但比情人遠一點
曖昧是
你會常常在MSN等他線上
當他幾天沒有線上
你就會有些擔心
曖昧是
你會不時去他的BLOG看看有沒有更新
而且你會留意字裏行間
他對你有沒有什麼暗示
曖昧是有感覺
然而這種感覺
不足以叫你切切實實地發展一段正式的關係
曖昧是
明白人生有太多的無奈
現實有太多的限制
你知道沒有可能但又捨不得放手
曖昧是
有進一步的衝動
卻沒有進一步的勇氣
曖昧是
他不是你的情人
但似乎他比你的情人更關心你和瞭解你
曖昧是
你會編一條圍巾給他
但大家從沒有開始過
曖昧是
雖然他不是你的情人
但他卻會對你說：你對我是十分重要的
曖昧是
你感冒時有一個會在晚上打電話來
特意提醒你服藥
叫你蓋好被子早點睡的普通朋友
曖昧是
每當他提及他的另一半時
你會萬箭穿心
曖昧是
為了逃避背叛的罪惡感
曖昧是
甜津津又同時酸溜溜的
往往從未開始
已叫人不安
患得患失
曖昧是
別人以為你們在搞地下情時
你會沾沾自喜
曖昧是
別人問你們是否戀愛中
你張口結舌
曖昧是
常常掙扎表不表白
你怕表白之後
你既得不到一個情人
卻又失去了一個知心好友
曖昧是
見到他你會心跳
見不到他時
你會掛念他
曖昧是
兩個人都會互相猜想
他是不是已經暗示了什麼?
我是不是自作多情?
曖昧是
每天大家都會聊MSN
會互傳手機短訊
無規律地偶然約會
曖昧是
你很想多走一步
但又怕會嚇怕了他
你會很小心流露自己的感情
曖昧是
除了情人節之外
其他的節日
大家都交換禮物
曖昧是
兩個人沒有承諾過什麼
但雖然如此
你願意付出的
比有承諾的情侶更多 沒有責任
但你卻很渴望去承擔 不問回報
曖昧是一扇門
你可以停留在門外
也可以踏進房子裏面
然後你不可以停留在門下面
門 永遠不是終點站
-----------
兩個月前~ 7月2 我的good rest 周末 妳 跟別人去了BUKIT BINTANG的..
妳回國前給我看的 DRAMA 我沒時間看完,在忙..
妳說妳很喜歡看PERSONAL TASTE,我只看了一半,現在也沒了討論劇情的機會了
妳回來了..我也一個月沒看DRAMA了..
之前8月裡都在忙 YAMAHA 動畫
這周終於可以GOOD REST...
妳的DRAMA...我還有心去看嗎?
....一個月!真的過去了..
這周,妳又忙了什麼?
妳的POKE,我也一個月正~沒POKE回妳了....
我送妳的筷子,看到妳似乎又戴了起來...
明明之前還戴了別的發誓..
筷子,給妳做了個紀念...
妳給我的紀念呢?韓國回來的手信呢?..沒有!
則是....共通用過 某東西 的回憶,還有哪種 悲傷的痛
5月妳的生日,我帶給妳的muffin,我們的過去周末..馬六甲的事情..想起來還真有點耿耿於懷...
SMS還在電話裡.. 等待著我 紀錄 出來..然後刪除
你們認識很久
他天天朝九晚五噓寒問暖的
電話比你的鐘錶還要準時
你滿心歡喜你開始心懷期待
就連做夢都會笑出來
可是他就是什麼也不說
你對自己說等等再等等
直到有一天
你看到他身邊有了另一個身影
你震驚：「不是...這是....我是.....？」
在朋友眼裏你們很登對
每次聚會他做你的護花使者責無旁貸
你也發現自己對他有了些些的依賴
他總是不經意的拍拍你的肩
很寵愛的揉揉你的髮
朋友關於你們之間無傷大雅的玩笑讓你覺得很甜蜜
你說你感覺幸福就在不遠的地方
就在你以為一切都將水到渠成的時候
睛天霹靂,他說他從沒對你有過這種想法
他說這是你的誤會
你呆住了：「誤會？那麼多人前的親暱......竟...竟然是...誤會...？」
傷心嗎?
難過嗎?
痛苦嗎?
只是....只是
誰讓你把曖昧當愛情呢？………
這是個曖昧橫行的年代
感情出現的第三個種類
比友情深比愛情淺
游走於二者的邊緣
這就是曖昧
是什麼時候開始本應是明明朗朗的愛情成了一場麓戰
誰先動心誰就滿盤皆輸萬劫不復
是誰把簡單複雜化
其實說穿了
曖昧
是可以推脫責任的遊戲
沒有承諾就無需負責
曖昧
是勇敢者的遊戲,無畏的人
才能在角逐中進退自如
如果你沒有鐵石鑄就的心腸做軟胃甲
那麼你就別拿曖昧當愛情...
曖昧是
比好朋友再親一點
但比情人遠一點
曖昧是
你會常常在MSN等他線上
當他幾天沒有線上
你就會有些擔心
曖昧是
你會不時去他的BLOG看看有沒有更新
而且你會留意字裏行間
他對你有沒有什麼暗示
曖昧是有感覺
然而這種感覺
不足以叫你切切實實地發展一段正式的關係
曖昧是
明白人生有太多的無奈
現實有太多的限制
你知道沒有可能但又捨不得放手
曖昧是
有進一步的衝動
卻沒有進一步的勇氣
曖昧是
他不是你的情人
但似乎他比你的情人更關心你和瞭解你
曖昧是
你會編一條圍巾給他
但大家從沒有開始過
曖昧是
雖然他不是你的情人
但他卻會對你說：你對我是十分重要的
曖昧是
你感冒時有一個會在晚上打電話來
特意提醒你服藥
叫你蓋好被子早點睡的普通朋友
曖昧是
每當他提及他的另一半時
你會萬箭穿心
曖昧是
為了逃避背叛的罪惡感
曖昧是
甜津津又同時酸溜溜的
往往從未開始
已叫人不安
患得患失
曖昧是
別人以為你們在搞地下情時
你會沾沾自喜
曖昧是
別人問你們是否戀愛中
你張口結舌
曖昧是
常常掙扎表不表白
你怕表白之後
你既得不到一個情人
卻又失去了一個知心好友
曖昧是
見到他你會心跳
見不到他時
你會掛念他
曖昧是
兩個人都會互相猜想
他是不是已經暗示了什麼?
我是不是自作多情?
曖昧是
每天大家都會聊MSN
會互傳手機短訊
無規律地偶然約會
曖昧是
你很想多走一步
但又怕會嚇怕了他
你會很小心流露自己的感情
曖昧是
除了情人節之外
其他的節日
大家都交換禮物
曖昧是
兩個人沒有承諾過什麼
但雖然如此
你願意付出的
比有承諾的情侶更多 沒有責任
但你卻很渴望去承擔 不問回報
曖昧是一扇門
你可以停留在門外
也可以踏進房子裏面
然後你不可以停留在門下面
門 永遠不是終點站
-----------
兩個月前~ 7月2 我的good rest 周末 妳 跟別人去了BUKIT BINTANG的..
妳回國前給我看的 DRAMA 我沒時間看完,在忙..
妳說妳很喜歡看PERSONAL TASTE,我只看了一半,現在也沒了討論劇情的機會了
妳回來了..我也一個月沒看DRAMA了..
之前8月裡都在忙 YAMAHA 動畫
這周終於可以GOOD REST...
妳的DRAMA...我還有心去看嗎?
....一個月!真的過去了..
這周,妳又忙了什麼?
妳的POKE,我也一個月正~沒POKE回妳了....
我送妳的筷子,看到妳似乎又戴了起來...
明明之前還戴了別的發誓..
筷子,給妳做了個紀念...
妳給我的紀念呢?韓國回來的手信呢?..沒有!
則是....共通用過 某東西 的回憶,還有哪種 悲傷的痛
5月妳的生日,我帶給妳的muffin,我們的過去周末..馬六甲的事情..想起來還真有點耿耿於懷...
SMS還在電話裡.. 等待著我 紀錄 出來..然後刪除
2011年9月3日 星期六
Just be friends
Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends Just be friends...
I remembered early yesterday morning
Why do I feel
As if I'm gathering piece of broken glass? Blood drips from my cut fingers
I wonder if we wanted to do these kinds of things
I already knew deep inside my heart
That the most painful choice would be the best
My self-love refuses it and as a result, self-contradiction repeats
I wonder when we can talk
In this slowly decaying world
A path for my struggling self
I carve in your colorless smile
I pulled off the plug
I shouted until my voice was dry
The echo reverberates in the empty air
Although there was nothing left
After the chains were removed
Fate that allowed us to meet
The darkness interrupts countless and relentless time
"So this is how it is..."
I murmured Somebody's tears flow down dried cheeks
All we gotta do Just be friends It's time to say goodbye Just be friends All we gotta do Just be friends Just be friends Just be friends...
I realized at yesterday's quiet night That even if I pick up the fallen flower leaves It won't bloom back to its original form The small death on top of my hands Our time is frozen still
I remembered the season when we first met
And your sweetly smiling face
I push the present to the past and received the scars that we both got
Our hearts are full of thorns
Even in this frustratingly continuing relationship
I sadly can't change my heart
I was loving you, I didn't want to be apart from you
But I have to say it
The rain that pours on my heart
Dazed and terrified, even my vision is blurry
I anticipated the hurt
But my body can't move
Fate that connected us
Becomes undone and disappears into everyday life
Goodbye my loved one...This is the end
Now we look go on without looking back
Once more, once more
If my wish can come true
I want to be reborn many times
I'll go and meet you from that day
I shouted until my voice was dry
The echo reverberates in the empty air
Although there was nothing left
After the chains were removed
Fate that connected us
Becomes undone and disappears into everyday life
Goodbye my loved one...
This is the end Now we look go on without looking back
This is the end
Just be friends It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends Just be friends...
I remembered early yesterday morning
Why do I feel
As if I'm gathering piece of broken glass? Blood drips from my cut fingers
I wonder if we wanted to do these kinds of things
I already knew deep inside my heart
That the most painful choice would be the best
My self-love refuses it and as a result, self-contradiction repeats
I wonder when we can talk
In this slowly decaying world
A path for my struggling self
I carve in your colorless smile
I pulled off the plug
I shouted until my voice was dry
The echo reverberates in the empty air
Although there was nothing left
After the chains were removed
Fate that allowed us to meet
The darkness interrupts countless and relentless time
"So this is how it is..."
I murmured Somebody's tears flow down dried cheeks
All we gotta do Just be friends It's time to say goodbye Just be friends All we gotta do Just be friends Just be friends Just be friends...
I realized at yesterday's quiet night That even if I pick up the fallen flower leaves It won't bloom back to its original form The small death on top of my hands Our time is frozen still
I remembered the season when we first met
And your sweetly smiling face
I push the present to the past and received the scars that we both got
Our hearts are full of thorns
Even in this frustratingly continuing relationship
I sadly can't change my heart
I was loving you, I didn't want to be apart from you
But I have to say it
The rain that pours on my heart
Dazed and terrified, even my vision is blurry
I anticipated the hurt
But my body can't move
Fate that connected us
Becomes undone and disappears into everyday life
Goodbye my loved one...This is the end
Now we look go on without looking back
Once more, once more
If my wish can come true
I want to be reborn many times
I'll go and meet you from that day
I shouted until my voice was dry
The echo reverberates in the empty air
Although there was nothing left
After the chains were removed
Fate that connected us
Becomes undone and disappears into everyday life
Goodbye my loved one...
This is the end Now we look go on without looking back
This is the end
2011年9月1日 星期四
《拍卖春天》：一只鸭泪流满面，一只鸡心碎无痕
生活有一千万张脸，你永远不知道它会在什么时候给你拿一张，以及给多久。
今天的生活是用金钱作为标签的生活，一切遵循经济社会的等价交换原则，但要排除生活，因为很有可能的情况是你付出了很多给生活，而生活回报给你的又太少。
这个社会始终分很多层次，就像大海有不同的水域。越向上，阳光越充足，也就越明亮越温暖；越向下，阳光越稀缺，也就越暗淡越寒冷。
即使奥地利的大夫惊世骇俗地喊出了其实人的一生就是为了满足下半身的需要而奋斗，但习惯了佩戴文明面具的现代人还是会对于用身体交换金钱的生灵皱起眉头。
电影的商品属性是高悬在电影工作者头顶的最高指示，难得还有电影导演肯弃绝手持钞票的广大观众而毅然决然地把摄影机对准时代的角落，暗淡的寒冷的角落。
在这角落里，一个中年男人为了支付妻子高昂的治疗费而献身做鸭，一个年轻女人为了夺回孩子的抚养权而舍身成鸡。
没有人愿意出来卖，尽管二手玫瑰高唱“如果全世界都在卖！”没有人愿意出卖身体，因为所有人都知道出卖身体的同时还会赠送灵魂与尊严，而后两者却是无价的。
一只鸭被社团的女老大点到，吓得不举，心理的伤害又有谁能体会？一只鸡被女同重金收买，内心纠结，心理的阴影何时才能驱散？
生活就像他们脖子后面的巨石，压得他们抬不起头，喘不出气。在生存的压力面前，面子又能换几个钱？当他们的身体被迫震动的时候，心中的颤栗又有几人知晓？他们不是外星的怪物，也不是山中的鸟兽，他们是行走在大街上与我们没有任何区别的普通人！当父亲在女儿的面前向人跪地求饶时的那一幕，着实让人心碎，这一场戏十分扎心……
在电影中，那四平八稳的节奏，那活蹦乱跳的歌舞，似是而非的散发着《天边一朵云》的气味，而那著名演员的著名演技确实可圈可点，至于白小姐的水准，一如她那干巴的身材不够圆润。片中几首歌曲，始终给人力道不足的感觉，正如全片给人留下的印象——几处发力甚猛，但缺乏持久力……
在这一只鸭和这一只鸡的背后，折射的是整个社会的道德问题，那些叫外卖的各色人等，他们的问题事实上不正是这个社会其他角落里的灰尘吗？要知道，他们只不过是这是金钱至上的社会产下的痛苦不堪的孩子而已！
望着这一只泪流满面的鸭，望着这一只心碎无痕的鸡，除了无语还是无语。忽然很多年前有一首歌曲，它好像是这样唱的：
“风吹着杨柳——哗啦啦啦，小河的流水——哗啦啦啦，谁家的导演要拍片啦——左手一只鸡，右手一只鸭，身后还背着一个时代的丑娃娃呀，咿呀咿对儿喂！”
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